The barren wasteland

Photo

Sat, 30 Mar 2013 23:22:24 -0400

"Something by Raquel And so it came to be this isolation that I am I can only look to me to find the..."

Tue, 18 Dec 2012 12:18:13 -0500

“

Something
by Raquel

And so it came to be
this isolation that I am
I can only look to me
to find the way it all began -
this confusion, constant
hunger for something more than this
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss.
Could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
Could it be that I am lonely,
or seek happiness at any cost?
This never-ending Something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide.

”

- http://www.netpoets.com/poems/depress/0472001.htm

"Genuine love is rarely an emotional space where needs are instantly gratified. To know love we have..."

Wed, 28 Mar 2012 14:57:29 -0400

“Genuine love is rarely an emotional space where needs are instantly gratified. To know love we have to invest time and commitment… dreaming that love will save us, solve all our problems or provide a steady state of bliss or security only keeps us stuck in wishful fantasy, undermining the real power of love — which is to transform us.”

- bell hooks (via queerfatfemme)

Through all the darkness and sadness I kept you in my heart Always thinking of you Wondering if you...

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 09:24:29 -0500

Through all the darkness and sadness

I kept you in my heart

Always thinking of you

Wondering if you were thinking of me

Hoping that you were…

And…

You thought of me which makes it seem so much less dark inside me

I Want To Die

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 08:05:47 -0500

theidiotmanifesto:

On days like today,
When everything seems
Ever so white in its void,
And angels would impale
Their hearts upon devil tears.
As the emotion of a million
Is shattered and burned,
Turned to comet’s dust
And swallowed by the dirty.
Love no longer tastes beautiful
When scars remind us of
What it was to touch yesterday.

Bleed

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 07:52:33 -0500

myinkstainedheart:

My skin is not pale
my blood is crimson,
but if you would take a blade
and cut through my chest you’d see,
my blood is crimson,
my heart is pallid, sickly.

And here I lacerate my pen,
like I would lacerate my vein open,
because I need ample convincing,
I’m not as dead as I think,
I still feel something.

Phoenix

Sun, 06 Nov 2011 02:32:37 -0500

waitin4forever:

It hides inside her,
enslaved to the bars
of a cage,
wants to be free,
won’t break the chains.
Convincing herself
she prefers the dark,
when could
fly away
faster
than an
avalanche.
Incentive desire
for things she’s
never done,
but dreads nothing more
than to travel the unknown.
She knows
she has to
change her ways,
no need to be afraid
of a penultimate fate.
Full of life and dreams,
needing to believe,
before ending up
lamenting
a life
she never
tried
to
live.

My dearest Juliet I have been but a humble slave to your beauty, From the first moment our eyes...

Mon, 31 Oct 2011 08:49:14 -0400

My dearest Juliet

I have been but a humble slave to your beauty,

From the first moment our eyes met.

You were my shining light,

In my dark days.

My love for you has consumed me,

Where all that is left is you.

Our love could never be,

Always obstructed from blossoming.

It was poisoned,

It is ruined.

It is clear that we cannot ever freely be together.

Alas I cannot live in a world where you belong to another,

Where you will be held in another’s arms and caressed.

My heart shall always be yours my sweet Juliet.

With this blade my blood shall spill from my veins and resolve us of our sins.

I sincerely hope that in time you will forgive me

And find solace in the memories of our love.

Eternally yours

Romeo

Glance

Fri, 21 Oct 2011 02:40:49 -0400

mysearchforwisdom:

Passive passion,

Activated, with a look,

That look, that baited hook,

Takes, every word from a poets book,

Mashes all the passion into one dreamy eyed glance.

That thousand hour stare,

Peering through blades of hair,

Giving my heart into your care,

If not but moments flouting int he air.

A blink and a flash,

And the glance is lost behind,

Turned lash,

Rushing fast,

I pass,

And amass,

The courage to come,

And answer your call,

Your advance,

Your glance.

Regret

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 10:14:00 -0400

The day that your heart stopped beating

A hole was ripped into my soul that left me raw and aching

At the exact moment you left this Earth

I was unaware of your departure

I was foolishly preoccupied with childish conquests

It breaks me that I was so oblivious to your departing

Unimaginable that I was so detached from this fact

The truth…

It has haunted me ever since that fateful day

Silently punishing myself for my detachment and foolishness

To this day there is no bigger regret that I carry with me

I was not aware

I was not there

I did not say goodbye

Things I never said

Wed, 19 Oct 2011 10:11:00 -0400

I never said I loved you enough

I never told you that you where my hero, my comfort, my support

I was your biggest fan, your little girl

How I looked up at you in wonder

You always made me feel special and important

There was nothing you couldn’t do and nothing you couldn’t fix or make

I never told you how wonderful you were or how special you were to me

I never told you how lucky I was to have you in my life

I never told you these things and I’ll regret this until I depart this Earth

intrinsicself: I am ravaged and consumed, By this unquenchable, Thirst for you. Parched and...

Tue, 18 Oct 2011 03:49:25 -0400

intrinsicself:

I am ravaged and consumed,
By this unquenchable,
Thirst for you.

Parched and cracked,
Scarred and brittle,
I await your rain.

With my arms outstretched,
Turning circles, headward sky,
I catch as many drops as I can.

Soak through my skin,
Because inside me,
Isnt close enough.

Photo

Mon, 17 Oct 2011 04:52:15 -0400

All beauty must die.: Friends and Darkness.

Sun, 16 Oct 2011 08:49:07 -0400

All beauty must die.: Friends and Darkness.:

mister-selfdestruct:

Surrounded by people
that laugh and smile
and hold hands as they look
into each other’s eyes
the way lovers should
embracing each other
as though it was the last time
they would feel this good

I’m a shadow of them
I have eyes that wander
and hands that are empty
just like my smile

I…

Take my hand let me lead you toward the light because you cannot see...

Thu, 13 Oct 2011 05:00:19 -0400

Take my hand let me lead you toward the light because you cannot see...:

poeticallyundead:

Take my hand
let me lead you toward the light
because you cannot see yourself
through the clouds in your mind
my dearest, I love you
infinitely more than you love yourself
because you doubt and question
every positive remark
whispered your way
but I promise you this
every breath to pass…

Repression

Wed, 12 Oct 2011 10:28:12 -0400

I push it all down

Keep it locked up inside

Its screaming on the inside, begging to be let loose

It hurts to keep it in

The chaotic disorder of it all scares me

It makes me anxious

If I let it out I’m not sure what will be brought to the surface

So much suffering and hurt lays hidden away

Silently eating away at my conscious and sanity

Didn’t need you to rescue me Didn’t need you to promise me a tomorrow or a happy ever after Didn’t...

Wed, 12 Oct 2011 10:16:28 -0400

Didn’t need you to rescue me

Didn’t need you to promise me a tomorrow or a happy ever after

Didn’t need you judging me or my reasoning… or the lack thereof.

I needed you to be there for me, really be there for me

I needed to know that you would be my anchor

I needed to know that I could have your heart in good time, no matter how selfish that seemed.

That would have made all the difference

It would have changed things.

But you left me, standing on my own

out in the cold,

feeling…

abandoned…

All beauty must die.: Masks.

Tue, 04 Oct 2011 09:19:54 -0400

All beauty must die.: Masks.:

mister-selfdestruct:

I know how afraid you are
of opening your mouth
because you’re scared
of the secrets you keep
that should you unclench
your gritted teeth
that holds your tongue
you’ll spill truth right at my feet

I’ll examine, expose
investigate, compose
pulling my way into you
via your intestines

I will…

I close my eyes and you’re staring right at me Your eyes pierce my flesh and touch my soul You see...

Sun, 02 Oct 2011 12:15:24 -0400

I close my eyes and you’re staring right at me

Your eyes pierce my flesh and touch my soul

You see right through me, you see the real me

Your voice echoes in my head filling me with pure bliss

Your presence is electric and I find myself struggling to breathe

Every thought I have is consumed by you

"The most important thing in all human relationships is conversation, but people don’t talk anymore,..."

Sun, 02 Oct 2011 02:38:36 -0400

“The most important thing in all human relationships is conversation, but people don’t talk anymore, they don’t sit down to talk and listen. They go to the theater, the cinema, watch television, listen to the radio, read books, but they almost never talk. If we want to change the world, we have to go back to a time when warriors would gather around a fire and tell stories.”

- Paulo Coelho (via slekes)